I am submissive. I also have nerve problems meaning I recognise pain and pressure in different ways to "normal" - which makes for interesting sub play to say the least...
I love to be submissive because I love reliquishing my control to the man I trust and love completely. I love the strength and power he has over me, I love how caring he is when he controls me, the love in his eyes, the fact that I know that everytime he flogs or spanks me he is doing it for my pleasure. It's such an intimate thing to share.
I also love the physical feelings too - the tease and stroke of a suede flogger, the tingle of a pinwheel, the stroke of his fingers just before the hot slap of his hand on my skin, the dull thwack of a flogger, the thud of a paddle, the pull on my hair as he wraps his fingers close to my head, his nails and teeth digging into my skin.
So here's a round up of my favourite toys for a sub session:
1) My beautiful, sleek, classy, collar. It's suede on the outside, soft leather on the inside, it fastens securely and looks beautiful against the pale, creamy skin of my neck. It makes me feel owned by my Master and it can be looped with a chain lead to give him even more control.
2) Floggers are simply wonderful spanking implements - they can be quite a gentle introduction to spanking, especially suede ones which have a dull and controllable thwack (though you do have to be aware of the flick of a long frond somewhere unexpected), the sensation can be intensified with a firmer hand and the soothing stroke of suede can be a beautiful sensation after a painful session. I think this is my favourite because it's portable and can be taken anywhere - it was also a gift from a very lovely friend.
3) My pinwheel is just a delicious sensation. They're designed to test nerve function and give a delectable, sensual, shivery sensation. Simply divine. They can be used, with care, on the labia, inner arms, the neck and thighs for the most sensitive response. I got mine on Ebay but plenty of sex toy retailers have started selling them now.
4) My suede/leather paddle - a dull thud on one side and a sharper thwack on the other the cooling leather of this paddle feels wonderful on spanked red cheeks whilst the suede side is great for beginners. This paddle was our first step into submission and spanking.
5) My penis gag - because I am my Master's cock sucker and sometimes I need an oral distraction whilst he plays with me! I have to be in the right mood to use this, but it's excellent for an orally fixated sub and something to bite down on when being pleasured or punished. Plus it's glittery!
(A dreadful image - when I can, I'll take a photo of mine to replace it, mine has a much shorter penis too)
You'll notice many of my favourite products are from Bondage Boutique over at Lovehoney - I'm not usually brand loyal, but their range of bondage toys are simply wonderful. Well made and reasonably priced they also have a loyalty scheme where you can collect stickers to gain a paddle from the range. They have an extensive range of toys for the beginner and the more experienced. It's not like me to love a brand as much as I love this one and I really recommend at least taking a look at the reviews and products.
Happy spanking,
Alicia <3
